From the Editor

Dear Brian,
PAY ATTENTION TO ME!! PAY ATTENTION TO ME! I have to admit you are one of my favorite people and understand two sides of me that many people don't even know about: my obsession with the X-files, and Christina Agulara. I love how you always make my day brighten by signing "Dirty" or "ooh baby you want me?".Your style is rockin' and your enthusiasm over star trek and the x-files in truly admirable. I have known you since sixth grade, and you haven't lost that wonderful spirit and carefree boldness. No one is out of bounds for an impression or a comment by you. You talk to everyone and I think that is an amazing talent. Not to mention you looked so suave when you came to get me for homecoming (who's the sex machine with all the chicks?) I love that your not afraid to dance to "dirty" with me. I think my favorite memory with you is when you ran up and started dirty dancing with me right in front of Owen and then while grinding you turned to him and said "sorry I'm humping your girlfriend".I also think that it is hilarious that you won't ever really slap my ass. Your are the only boy I know that could get away with trying to lift my skirt up and not get slapped. You always think of me whether its getting key chains with X-files stuff on it or sending me post cards from Europe, and I love that. Your a fantastic artist, even if one of your drawings is of me Catherine Zeta, kissing Andy. I have so many wonderful things to say about you I could go on forever and ever. Stay cool always and remember I love you bebe!

Utopia INC.

I never fully understood why Nick Kapustinsky would not do drama at St. Mikes... Oh I understood the annoyances: No real stage, no curtain, lights that default, sound that defaults, bad sets, no props, bad actors, a nice but very loud coach.... He always thought he could and still can do better than this. That there was more to acting. Yet for me the chance to act always over powered all of this.

As long as I can remember I have had the secret urge to be in the spot light, hear the applause, live in that life. My child hood years where spent being made up characters. I constancy put on shows for my parents, wore costumes, created moves and pretend sets. All for the fun of it. I have always loved acting, its apart of me...

My desire as an actress is to be like an ephemeral moth, live for about 3 days as another person, get drawn to the light, have that be your whole focus, and then die. In the words of Dave Matthews: "when I step into the light my arms are open widely, when I step into the light my eyes searching blindly would you not like to be sitting on top of the world with your legs hanging free?"

So then why did I feel like Nick when it came to this play?
Its not that the play was bad, or anything... just my heart was somewhere else. I love all the people, please understand that, I think there is an extreme amount of talent. It sounds very selfish to say but I felt I was to big for this stage. I guess I will never fully understand why.

"I love acting. It is so much more real than life."
Wish me luck darlings...tonight in opening night!

Mirror, Mirror...

If my heart were not broken, if my mind was not torn, if I wasn't in pieces then I wouldn't be adorn. I am talked and hushed about. Oh how lovely to hear, the silenced words that are echoed when I am not near! There is passion and hunger here! Eat when your hungry and drink when your full. Run while you can and hide when you can't. Try to get through the day, swallow your pride, everyone is gossip and then sat aside. If I ate everything up where would I be? I need the drama just as everyone needs me. I want to be the dish, the center, the focus. Oh how I wish! You can't stop me. I'll do what I want. If you have something to say then please stab me in the front. So here in my chant to all who wish to chase: catch my if you want to taste. Swallow me, devour me, rip me apart, your mouth will be silence and your drama lost. And I will have paid the ultimate cost.