Intimate associates

So I went to Foot Locker my conversation went thus far: " I would like to return these shoes, they were not the right size."
Woman " Mark sold these to you."
Man "So did he ever show up?"
Woman "No he couldn't handle it."
Man" Isn't he Buddhist?"
Woman "yeah he's all I'm a Buddhist the whole world is an illusion ... yeah I'm a Buddhist but I cant get peoples shoes. Some Buddhist, he likes punk rock.( she turns to me) have you ever met a Buddhist that likes punk rock?"
so my COW of the week is a question: Have YOU ever met a Buddhist that liked punk rock? Im curious now.

and that makes two....

Janitors are our friends!

They helped me jump start my car... since Ben went to college my jump start buddy is gone. So the janitors helped me jump start my car! Thanks guys! ( not that they read this....)

Things Alex enjoys immensely:
1. The sound of little kids eating cookies.
2. Old men pretending to jog.
3.Listening to Brittany and Emily's conversations.
4. Getting to sleep in an hour later today!
5. Not having to set my watch because I never set it.

Which reminds me cows today were very pissed off. They don't like to wait and extra- hour to get milked. They are very time sensitive. Odd ain't it?

The only thing to do with good advice is pass it on; it is never of any use to oneself.

Oscar Wilde said this quote...This is for Deborah Wright. You live in my heart and guide me in ways I had never known until you were gone. I miss you so much, not only for myself but my mother. I will follow Oscar Wilde's advice and pass on the wisdom you gave me. Happy Birthday.

So my licence expired yesterday I have been thinking about all I have done in a year... it seems so short on one hand but in the other hand I have done sooo much: I went to Europe. Washington DC twice. I have watched my dad move away. I have seen Sam come to work at my school. I have been to Hummingbird music camp.I started playing the violin. I joined soccer. I have hit my x-boyfriends car. I have made new friends. I have lost one of my best friends. J'ai eu une affaire chaude. I have had my heard broken and have broken others. I have had my second mother die. I have gained a respect for myself i never thought possible. I have grown up in more ways than I can imagine.I have had so many memorable experiences I cant recount them all. I have become a speechie.

Crooked Little Smile on Her Face, Tells a Tail of Grace That's All Her Own

As I sit at home today..thinking. Have you ever woken up and gone: why today? Well on days like this I take the day off. I stay at home and don't get dressed and be reclusive. When you don't come in contact with people they can't hurt you.

Besides I have to clear my head of matters floating in it, that I do not have the option of thinking about. I have yet to learn the valued lesson in life of minding my own business, and keeping my own secrets. One day. Oh I keep them when i have to...believe me. ( If your panicking and reading this, don't, I swear that I will never tell some things, because not only would they hurt me but many others).

I have so many thoughts in my head and I am trying to make them simple. Being that I know I and all my friends have the major tendency to exaggerate everything. Example:
Stephanie had an apple.
Stephanie had an apple that had a worm in it.
Stephanie had an apple and an orange and they were rotted.
Stephanie had an apple and an orange that were rotted and her and Jessica were throwing them.
Stephanie had an apple and an orange that were rotted and her and Jessica were throwing them at Thales and Nick to get them back to talking about her.
Stephanie had an apple and an orange that were rotted and her and Jessica were throwing them at Thales and Nick to get them back to talking about her and spreading evil rumors to Dylan and Alex about how Stephanie had an apple.

I could go on but you get the gist. We all know we do this and yet somehow none of us are ever satisfied with "an apple" So today what I am trying to do it take "Alex had a problem that was blown out of proportion and now she is going to die and this is the end of the world unless there is some kind of solution within the next 24 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" to "Alex has a problem."

Ive gotten it down to "Alex has a problem, it wont kill her and she doesn't ever have to solve it if she doesn't panic" wow don't I feel better!!!

Happy Birthday to me!!!!

I'm 17 today. Its amazing. Nick, Steph and I had a joint party last night. It was fun. I have many thanks to give to Jessica and Susan. I loved the party. It was a costume party, I was Marilyn Monroe! yay! I loved it. It was a joint because Steph's birthday was the 10th, and Nicks the 13th. I enjoyed it we even had a cake that said :" happy birthday steph-alex-nick".

I had a good day I got a C in biology!! I am so happy.

I am in love with Norah Jones I got her CD for my birthday!! I love her.go here to see her web page. I highly recommend everyone get her CD.

Do you want to know something ironic today is also Columbus day and ironically enough its also Indigenous People's day.They defiantly should not be on the same day!

I Do Not Understand Myself, Others, and Humanity

I don't get it...So tonight is Friday, which is Owen and I's date night ( how cliche) anyway, so I looked good ( well I wore nice cloths and put on french perfume and makeup..a rare feet for me now-a-days ) So Owen picks me up and is like what do you want to do? I said I wanted to eat. So he's like well my friend is playing at warehouse..so lets go see his band and then eat. So we go to Warehouse and start watching this band and 10 min. later Connor, Nick and Katie show up. Katie and I talk ( more like giggle uncontrollably) Later in the evening Thales, Jessica, and Susan are all there. So Katie goes off with Sahai ( spelling no clue!!) and Nick is depressed...

Well I have been stressing all week because I thought I needed to tell Nick that Katie was kind of only going to homecoming with him to see me....but I didn't want to because I just thought I would look like a "jealous X" ( did anyone watch friends on Thursday?) So Thales tells me he knows too, we both confirm that the right thing to do is tell Nick, what he seems to already know. So we go up and talk to him. Me cold as always he offers me his jacket....

At this point I'm still hungry, and I have no idea where Owen is. So Owen later comes up and says to me that Sean (one of his friends) really wants to go buy dress shirts, and if that's OK that maybe I could find a ride home with Jessica and Susan or someone. I say sure ( lying to be nice) and he's like no that's mean. So I am starting to complain now about being hungry...being that I was hungry at 6:30 and its like 8:00 now. So finally he agrees to take me to get food. Well he wants to bring some of his friends. I say yes. So we all go out to eat at the Dynasty.Me still wearing Nicks jacket. It was fun. So then we go back to Warehouse and Owen goes listen Alex Sean and I are going to go buy shirts please find a ride home.. Obviously my face betrayed my simple "yeah sure", because he was like yeah Alex I will bring you home. So I got dropped off at 9:45, still wearing Nicks jacket...I didn't have to be home till 10:15. I have never been home from a date early before.

I have Nicks jacket in my room now and I'm thinking several things: When did borrowing a jacket become such a big deal? When did life get so complicated? I can not describe what I am really feeling at this moment: Its not love and its not hate or even anger. Its a disbelief of the whole situation. Lets just put it this way: Never in my ideas did I ever think a date with Owen would be spent in Nick's jacket.

Owen

The Cow of the Week!! So in the course of this blog I have mentioned Owen Conley a lot..and yet I have never told my dear readers ( OK reader...) about him.

Physically: He has really cute curly brown hair. He is about my height and he has the most beautiful brown eyes I have ever seen. He wears wranglers and several tight shirts.. the best way to describe him is very European. I love it.

Personality: He drives very fun.. ( "Its my turn I want to go") He wants to be a speed racer.. and/or make movies.He just got a movie into Three Minute Festival on Sept. 6th. He works at Plan B and goes to SFHS. He loves the White Stripes,The Strokes and Canadian Sinth. ( not sure if that is how you spell that.) bands. He loves taking pictures.. his room has a whole wall dedicated to sky pictures and the other wall has black and white photos of Urban Germany. Which he takes with an old Polaroid camera, because he likes how it makes them look "cheesy blue" He has a little sister named Ruth. His friends are really nice people.. as he would say they are rejects.. but I'm positive he's just kidding. He is Fixing up his 1965 Ford Falcon to be the Bat Mobile.. and plans to be batman for Halloween. He loves to meditate but hates Physics ( who doesn't?)

but its like 11:15 so I might add more tomorrow.

Today

I did not do much today. I'm worried about the fire up in Jemez.. God doesn't listen to me anymore but if by any chance he listens to you pray for Humming Bird Music Camp.. If it burns down a part of me would die to...

Case of the Week

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And now its time for the cow of the week. ( I can't believe I already have three of these!) Today's C.O.W.: I went on a picnic today with Owen and his friends. It was really fun. I didn't say much, I do that sometimes... I don't know why, but when I get uncomfortable or really want to make a good impression I can never think of anything to say. Which is ironic because that usually makes a worse impression than if I were to suck it up and say something ( you know if you guys would email with cases maybe I wouldn't have to use my own pathetic life....just a thought...)comments are still greatly appreciated!!

A Selfish Good Deed

I volunteered at the hospital today. I got a really cool clearance card and get all the free food I want!! YEAH!! I am working in Radiology. I can't wait to actually get started, on Sunday. I am so excited I get to be a candy striper ( not to be confused with candy stripper... " I heard that you were feeling ill, headache, fever, and a chill. I came to restore you pluck because I'm the nurse that likes to".. OK so anyway)

I saw Owen on the way to school today, he was going to get coffee and I was leaving from the exact same place.. It really is a miracle I did not meet him before hummingbird... I must have and just do not remember it.

We Wear Pink Pajamas in the Summer when its Hot

So today I went swimming and Owen taught me how to drive a stick shift... I had so much fun.. I like stick's much better than automatic.. you can go faster..vroooooom, vrooooom

So Ben called me today..I was actually really surprised. He came over and met Owen..ahhh Owen such a cutie.....

Don't start trying to do the right thing now, Boyo. You haven't had the practice.

My name is Alex. I have a pretty normal life nothing spectacular.

I went uniform shopping today ( I go to a Catholic High School). I hate Dillard's.

Tomorrow is Ben's party. That is going to be the last time I see Ben maybe ever, I guess I should be more sad. I don't know why, Ben's a nice guy. I just am not sad. I worry about his party. I'm still on my medication from getting my wisdom teeth out. It makes me cranky.. I haven't decided if lately I am just mean or if it really is the medication.