One Good Thing About Music...

All day today I have felt that something was missing. I am at school and maybe its just the lack of people but my heart...My heart in somewhere else. My heart is missing vital components to it. I feel lost, I feel lonely. (which is my ultimate fear besides indecision, and being a monster.) I feel a lack of confidence, of self assurance. For the first time in a long while I don't know the right answer. I don't know what comes next. I do not know what to do.

I'm scared. Scared that I will loose contact with people I've grown to love. Scared that I will throw away something for nothing. Scared that I will loose what I have worked so hard to gain. I'm scared.

I take each day, day by day. And try to remember the best advice I've been given in a while:
"Anyway, enjoy the music, and always remember to live the moment: Life is grand; Love, real, and beauty, everywhere. Always and simply"
But every now and then I think ahead or I cannot remember. Its fear that drives me, and once again I can feel the panic settling in...and I am scared of its presence.