The Last Chapter Shall Be Called "How to Find What You Love Only To Constancy Loose it"

Sometimes its to hard to know where to begin.....Start with the dreaded absence of John, Teena telling me I was too weak and sensitive for him anyway, being shot at by drunk hicks, the end of camp,or my being a bridesmaid with a variable wedding date who called at 2:30 in the morning to say he couldn't come on the wrong date, his broken collar bone and all, or mention the amazing new state radio CD? Really they are all worth a mention. Nothing here has changed me as Always I'm not knowing exactly what I need. The only difference is now I might trust people a bit less. Which is truly sad on my part. So it is that time again...On to Chapter three.... "The adult Alex whose trust is on empty but hope still points to full"

-alex (the name never changes)