I Do Not Understand Myself, Others, and Humanity

I don't get it...So tonight is Friday, which is Owen and I's date night ( how cliche) anyway, so I looked good ( well I wore nice cloths and put on french perfume and makeup..a rare feet for me now-a-days ) So Owen picks me up and is like what do you want to do? I said I wanted to eat. So he's like well my friend is playing at warehouse..so lets go see his band and then eat. So we go to Warehouse and start watching this band and 10 min. later Connor, Nick and Katie show up. Katie and I talk ( more like giggle uncontrollably) Later in the evening Thales, Jessica, and Susan are all there. So Katie goes off with Sahai ( spelling no clue!!) and Nick is depressed...

Well I have been stressing all week because I thought I needed to tell Nick that Katie was kind of only going to homecoming with him to see me....but I didn't want to because I just thought I would look like a "jealous X" ( did anyone watch friends on Thursday?) So Thales tells me he knows too, we both confirm that the right thing to do is tell Nick, what he seems to already know. So we go up and talk to him. Me cold as always he offers me his jacket....

At this point I'm still hungry, and I have no idea where Owen is. So Owen later comes up and says to me that Sean (one of his friends) really wants to go buy dress shirts, and if that's OK that maybe I could find a ride home with Jessica and Susan or someone. I say sure ( lying to be nice) and he's like no that's mean. So I am starting to complain now about being hungry...being that I was hungry at 6:30 and its like 8:00 now. So finally he agrees to take me to get food. Well he wants to bring some of his friends. I say yes. So we all go out to eat at the Dynasty.Me still wearing Nicks jacket. It was fun. So then we go back to Warehouse and Owen goes listen Alex Sean and I are going to go buy shirts please find a ride home.. Obviously my face betrayed my simple "yeah sure", because he was like yeah Alex I will bring you home. So I got dropped off at 9:45, still wearing Nicks jacket...I didn't have to be home till 10:15. I have never been home from a date early before.

I have Nicks jacket in my room now and I'm thinking several things: When did borrowing a jacket become such a big deal? When did life get so complicated? I can not describe what I am really feeling at this moment: Its not love and its not hate or even anger. Its a disbelief of the whole situation. Lets just put it this way: Never in my ideas did I ever think a date with Owen would be spent in Nick's jacket.