Thinking On How Many People I Dislike and the Reasons Why

I feel like I have completely lost myself. I don't know who I am anymore. I am really the way I am described? I agree I am. But when did I become so angry, so filled with hate, so quick to blame, to be OK with manipulation. When did it become OK to judge so quickly? When did I loose sight of other human beings?

I think my mother is right. Its not depression or sadness or disappointment. Its a grown-up temper tantrum. I was a good child...why am I a bad adult?